thank you all

[wendyzski]

I really needed every single one of those hugs.

I was so afraid that I'd get criticized for do-it-yourself euthenasia, but I couldn't see making him suffer the stress of a trip. The nearest exotic vet is in Skokie (hallf-hour on train and then bus in the cold rain), and I don't even know if they would do such a procedure on an "emergency" after-hours basis. I had studied rodent anatomy when I was planning on dispatching those vermin-mice last year, so I was pretty confident I could do it as painlessly as possible. It was really hard, but in the end it really wasn't really a choice - I had to do whatever I could for him.

I cried myself into an asthma attack, but a couple of hours and half a box of tissues later I was able to clean out his cage and toys. Since I am hoping for my next fuzzy roomate to be a rabbit, I will not be adopting another hammie for now. I have an e-mail in to the shelter he came from to see if they need equipment donations. I'll box everything up once it dries. It hurts too much to keep around with no one living in it.

*hugs pillow tightly*

Comments

[pensnuggles.livejournal.com]

I keep trying to find the right words to express my sorrow for you and the admiration I feel for your courage in performing that last terrible service for Renfield, but my eyes keep leaking and it's hard to see the keyboard. I don't know what, if any, plans you have for him now, but you are welcome to some space in my garden. We could plant sunflowers over him in the spring.

Do you need any meds for your asthma?

[lucybuckles.livejournal.com]

*hugglez and snugglies* for Wendy Lady

[duane-kc.livejournal.com]

Darlin', I'm so sorry. [big hug]

HUGS dear Lady

[sagcelt62.livejournal.com]

From first to last, your action was a loving one...HUGS

[ladyariyana.livejournal.com]

{{hugs}}}

[lisagems.livejournal.com]

Like I said, it's the hardest act of kindness there is. But mercy is a kindness.

Don't forget, I'm just up the road a bit if you ever need help.