waaah

had to get upwaay too early this morning for interview.
no Rob-time till tomorrow- he has many too many errands to run today.
I feel better but still vaguely fevered and out of sorts
am absolutely terrified about unemployment hearing on Monday morning
that time of the month.grrr.

I'm gonna hide now.

yay

Rob stopped by - just for a minute, but he stopped by.

sigh....

waaaaaaaah

My hamster broke!

I was cutting his toenails and he wiggled and something went 'crack' in his little foot! I can't afford a vet, even if I could find one that takes dwarf hamsters. He's getting around okay, and eating, but definitely dragging it, and it just looks wrong somehow. waaah. I feel so guilty! I'm afraid to try and mess with it - that I'll hurt him more. I've moved stuff in his cage so he doesn't have to climb anything, and am supplementing his diet with extra protein & minerals. Also moving cage to a darker and quieter place to reduce stress.

::sobs::

UPDATE: I have a gig this weekend and can't call around to vets. I have $30 in my bank account, and no possibility of more unless I win this hearing on Monday. I've had no regular income since mid-july. That's part of why I'm so upset - I can't do anything for the little guy. It's my responsibility and I'm failing him. I'm a bad hamster-mom. ::sobs more::