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First time in my life
Oct. 17th, 2004 06:47 amFor the first time in my life, I have pulled out of a gig due to illness.
I'm well into a full-blown lung infection - I'm coughing like a seal, running a fever, and I've had 2 hours of sleep. There is just no way I can go stand out in the cold all day and still have a prayer of making any of my job interviews this week.
If I didn't know that Josie and John had done okay at this show last weekend without me, I'd never have even considered it. But this is a small show that we're doing partly as a favor to a friend and partly because we didn't have anything else planned.
I feel horribly guilty. This is the first time in 38 years that I have allowed "real life" to get in the way of my dreams. If this is being "grown-up", it sucks.
I'm well into a full-blown lung infection - I'm coughing like a seal, running a fever, and I've had 2 hours of sleep. There is just no way I can go stand out in the cold all day and still have a prayer of making any of my job interviews this week.
If I didn't know that Josie and John had done okay at this show last weekend without me, I'd never have even considered it. But this is a small show that we're doing partly as a favor to a friend and partly because we didn't have anything else planned.
I feel horribly guilty. This is the first time in 38 years that I have allowed "real life" to get in the way of my dreams. If this is being "grown-up", it sucks.
