It's over

[wendyzski]

Renfield is dead.

I gave him water and more pain meds when I got home, and he seemed to revive a little. But he couldn't move either of his back legs, and he was trying to crawl across the cage dragging them and whimpering in pain.

I thought long and hard today about what I would do, and I finally decided that if it needed to be done tonight, taking him to an emergency vet to euthanize him would only cause him more stress and pain. So I waited till he was still and seemed to be dozing, and I broke his neck. It was quick and clean, and he didn't even move. I just couldn't let him suffer another minute.

I'm sorry little guy. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm sorry I couldn't make you better. All I could do was make it stop hurting. I hope you forgive me.

I tucked him into his little house with some fluff and his half-chewed milk-bone, and wrapped him up. I know he won't know that, but it made me feel a little better - like at least it was something I could do for him.

Rest in peace little one.

Comments

[capi.livejournal.com]

*bursting into tears with Wendy*

That was VERY brave, lady. I'm sorry you had to, but you were right. You *had* to! ((((( weepy hugs )))))

G'bye, Renfield! We loved you!

[wendyzski.livejournal.com]

I'm gonna have to put the cage in the closet or something. I cry every time I see it.

[capi.livejournal.com]

*quietly moves the cage into the closet under a blanket*

*sniffle*

Love you, Wendy lady......