It's over

[wendyzski]

Renfield is dead.

I gave him water and more pain meds when I got home, and he seemed to revive a little. But he couldn't move either of his back legs, and he was trying to crawl across the cage dragging them and whimpering in pain.

I thought long and hard today about what I would do, and I finally decided that if it needed to be done tonight, taking him to an emergency vet to euthanize him would only cause him more stress and pain. So I waited till he was still and seemed to be dozing, and I broke his neck. It was quick and clean, and he didn't even move. I just couldn't let him suffer another minute.

I'm sorry little guy. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm sorry I couldn't make you better. All I could do was make it stop hurting. I hope you forgive me.

I tucked him into his little house with some fluff and his half-chewed milk-bone, and wrapped him up. I know he won't know that, but it made me feel a little better - like at least it was something I could do for him.

Rest in peace little one.

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[queenmaggie.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. I hope I would be as brave, cause we both know that it was the best you could have done for him... but it hurts so much to have to do it. be well...