It's over

[wendyzski]

Renfield is dead.

I gave him water and more pain meds when I got home, and he seemed to revive a little. But he couldn't move either of his back legs, and he was trying to crawl across the cage dragging them and whimpering in pain.

I thought long and hard today about what I would do, and I finally decided that if it needed to be done tonight, taking him to an emergency vet to euthanize him would only cause him more stress and pain. So I waited till he was still and seemed to be dozing, and I broke his neck. It was quick and clean, and he didn't even move. I just couldn't let him suffer another minute.

I'm sorry little guy. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm sorry I couldn't make you better. All I could do was make it stop hurting. I hope you forgive me.

I tucked him into his little house with some fluff and his half-chewed milk-bone, and wrapped him up. I know he won't know that, but it made me feel a little better - like at least it was something I could do for him.

Rest in peace little one.

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[jamdin.livejournal.com]

Rest in peace, Renfield :(